The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus at the Birmingham Barfly

I understand that everyone in the world, just after they have been to a gig, will say “It was the best gig of my life”; I am one of those people. But the gig last night, truly was incredible. When Kill the Arcade came on, some dick in front of us wouldn’t stop waving ’til the lead singer got really pissed off (which was pretty funny, but you really wanted to just tap him on the back then punch him.) But the band themselves were pretty damn amazing; though no one dare get into it on fear of being rejected by people that didn’t like them haha.

Then Sherwood came on, legends XD I was really hoping they were good as I had just bought a CD of their’s outside in the queue. They turned out to be… meh… OK. But the keyboardist with his mighty afro, provided much entertainment with his bobbing and falling over LMAO.

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, you could tell that everyone in the room had come to see them, the energy was amazing. Every song they played lead to serious amounts of crowd participation, though the first song, there was no moshing, just filming XD Apparently my bag acted as a totally other person as it go in the way, but once we got moshing, no one cared. It was incredible (Y)

Racism

Since when is “Baa baa black sheep” fucking racist!!?? There are sheep with black wool, but it seems that we are now to call them rainbow sheep, when was the last time you saw a god damn multicoloured sheep?… Does anyone else think that this makes absolutely no sense at all? There appears to be a taboo on the word “black”, every time I say the word “black” to describe something nowadays, some chav’ll go: “Ommmmm that’s racist!!” It’s not fucking racist, it’s a colour and an adjective; it just happens to be that people are black as well, despite actually being brown TBH.

Therefore, when describing the colour of my new jeans; what the hell do you suggest I say? People aren’t even allowed to say “black board” what the fucking hell… seriously?? So what colour is it then, genius? Sure as hell isn’t rainbow, that’s for sure. And by this logic, I should get offended any time someone uses the word “white”… but I don’t, I’m not even white!! I’m like beige… sorta…

I’m not even gonna continue this, I’m allowed to use the word “black” OK? FFS…

~Samuel

My Nightmares Are Filled With People Like Him

My nightmares are filled with people like him,
Never a sweet dream with him around,
Wake up in cold sweats at 3AM,
Breathing heavy as I plummet back into calm.

Fall back into some twisted memory,
Tangled up with things yet to happen,
No safety net, nowhere to run,
Just staring into those demonic eyes.

The exaggerations of one’s parents…

1) “You spend too much time with that girl!!”

Reality: I get to spend about 5 hours a week with my girlfriend, at the maximum. They act like we’re attached or something (no innuendo intended).

2) “You’re getting fat, Sam!!”

Reality: I put on, what? A pound in the last month… They feed me absolute shit, I eat as little of it as I can, what the fuck do they expect!?

3)  “You’re one step away from being a transvestite, young man.”

Reality: I often wear eyeliner and nail varnish, but for (non-existant) God’s sake I don’t parade around in a skirt now, do I? Though I really wouldn’t mind -cough- ;D

4) “You like bloody men, what the fuck is wrong with you!?”

Reality: I don’t even have to put anything for this one…

5) “Your grades are dropping”

Reality: I’m not failing at all, I just don’t revise every second of the day like you tell me to…

~Samuel

Quiz (Not stalking Deanne):D

Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to?
Deanne, duh : ) Or a shark LMAO

Something you hate more than anything?
Prejudice

Tears are falling from your eyes, what’s the reason?
Anything, probably bullies

Your phone rings, who are you expecting?
Anyone, someone I like, hopefully ;D

You’re sitting at home bored, who do you call?
Deanne

How do you feel about the last person you kissed?
She is the most amazing person in the world, what a stupid question.

Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
Yep : )

Who was the last person on your missed call list?
My mom/dad, never answer calls from my family (unless they call me more than 10 times)

Have you ever envisioned your own wedding?
Yup, I’m wearing clothes

Have you been on a date in the last 2 weeks?
I don’t think it would class as a date, but it was awesome : )

Who will you be with Saturday night?
My computer and iPod : )

Is tomorrow going to be a good night?
As long as people are online (Y)

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Yup, Tom hugs like a spacktard with an erection : )

Who do you wish you were with right now?
Deanne, Julia, Rob, Jo and Abi

How many speeding tickets do you have?
368386

What are you doing tonight?
“Sleeping”

Are you in a good mood?
A VERY good mood… wow, odd XD

Was your last kiss a mistake?
Again: What a fucking stupid question!! Of course not, amazing as usual : )

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Last night

Can you handle the truth?
Yep

Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?

Nope

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah, I want to live with my friends

What’s the last HUGE mistake you made?
Thinking people could change.

Is there drama in your life right now?
Yes… ??? I don’t understand LOL

What was the most interesting part of your day?
My convos on MSN : )

Where did you kiss the last person you kissed?
On Deanne’s sofaaa LOL

Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Get up early, don’t waste the day in bed.. I waste it on Myspace ;D

Are you wearing anything new?
A humongous smile LOL

What are you excited for tomorrow?
3.25

How much do looks matter to you?
Someone’s eyes are the only thing I care about that would be classed as superficial

Do you like anybody right now?
Like isn’t exactly the right word I love you, Deanne :0)

When was the last time you had your hair cut?
AGES ago

Would you rather be mad or sad?
Mad, I’m sad too often…

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Nah, I’m a pussy ;D

Do you tell your parents everything?
I don’t talk to my parents, I scream at them

What’s your favourite colour to wear?
Pink, yo

Who was the last person in your bedroom?
My stupid brother!!

What are you freakishly obsessed with?
My appearance

Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
The mall, like an American, bludzzz

Wanting to tell someone something?
Yeah, get over yourself, bish ;D

What would you do with five million pounds?
Split 4 million between my friends, give one million to charity : )

2? 3?

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
I’m pretty sure they are ;D

Hmm…

I don’t understand, I’ve been told rather a few times that people hurt me because of the way I react. So I stop reacting, it gets WORSE! So then I start confronting people about it, asking why they do it. Transforming it into a full blown fucking argument and they still don’t listen. The only response I ever get is “’cause you’re gay” or “’cause you’re a Jew” For God’s sake, get a decent comeback or reason and I’ll listen. Pfft… ‘tards.

What an awful day!!

It’s just same old thing, isn’t it? One kid picks on another, everyone else joins. I don’t get what I’ve fucking done!!! I’m fat, oh my fucking God well done : D I am clearly an abomination because of it… Is it because I’m bisexual? Obviously not, because you twats were like this before you knew. I just don’t get it, is it fun to cause people pain and make them upset? Does it make you a hero to hurt people? I would write more but it’s not worth it, no ones going to pay attention.

I hate every single one of you motherfuckers. Right now I want to just sit here and cry my eyes out.

~Samuel

P.S. Happy Birthday, Deanne; the one ray of sunshine in my life : ))

For (Non-Existant) God’s Sake!!

Not only have I just spent my day amongst homophobic, sexist and generally prejudice pricks. They have the fucking cheek to spread rumors about me and then after telling half the year; quiz me about it to see if it’s true.

OK, so maybe some of the rumors are true, well at least one of them; but for fucks sake don’t ask why I didn’t tell. I didn’t tell you because of this exact reason; I didn’t want you to know and I didn’t want the rest of the fucking universe to know. I tell people I trust to not take the mick, to not tell anyone else or just to let them know. I don’t really care who eventually finds out, but if I want people to know, I’ll tell people.

If you actually know me then you probably know what I’m talking about. If not, I shall fill you in later. You see, the thing is; I have a lot of self-confidence, self-esteem and probably a few mental problems thrown in for good measure. I cry at things you don’t cry about, make a big fuss over shit that happens to you everyday. I also don’t tell the world my secrets, I tell the people close to me. If something I tell them gets out then I’ll be pissed with them, but it’s basically fine. If something gets out and I get taunted and teased about it, then fucking hell don’t wonder why I’m actually contemplating crawling into a hole forever.

I’m bisexual. “Woo fucking hoo, fag” is the most common response… You see, on here or on MySpace I can say that with confidence because the only people that are going to read it are my friends or people I have never met, so the opinions mean the world to me or they mean jack shit. But you see in the real world if a group of like 5 insensitive guys come to me and start harassing me asking if I’m bi ’cause they heard it from someone, I’m bound to deflect the question and tell you to piss off and leave me alone (or most likely break down in tears as I regularly do).

So basically, believe anything you want, spread anything you want. Right now I couldn’t give a shit. I just want you all to leave me alone. If you come up to me asking if I am, then I will reply. But if you suddenly jump around, shouting, taking the piss, then just don’t. I am willing to lose any relationships I may have at school over this; because if you think that me being attracted to boys as well as girls is wrong, then you aren’t going to get my attention.

Please come to me with an adult conversation… if some of you half wits can come up with one…

~Samuel

P.S. I know I post a lot of articles on this subject.

Thank you, Urban Dictionary..

4.	gay	3138 up, 1960 down
	Originally meant joyful, vibrant, and full of life. Now it’s used by ignorant (and often prejudiced) people to describe something that they don’t like. It’s especially common among teenage boys, who use it to look cool or to “hide” their insecurity about gay people. Gay is now slang for a homosexual person, that is, somebody who is attracted romantically and sexually to people of their own sex. Gay men are known as gays, while gay women are known as lesbians. And some bisexuals also identify as gay. Up to 1 in every 10 adults is predominantly gay; everybody is somewhere in between the two extremes of heterosexual and homosexual. Gay is only sometimes, but not always: -Living with AIDS. -Living a promiscuous life. -Acting very much like the opposite gender (very masculine women and very feminine men.)(When people think of these stereotypes, they’re usually thinking about transsexual people or transgender people instead. Most of these people are straight and just happen to identify as the opposite gender.) -All about sex. Being gay is not an illness or a perversion; it’s a totally normal variation of human sexuality and it’s been around for countless ages, not to mention existing in many different species of animals. In fact, heterosexuals could learn some things from gays, bisexuals, transgender people, pansexuals, asexuals, and other queer people… if they would only put their prejudice aside and look at them as people. Gay men don’t take any women from the straight men looking for a lady and vice versa with lesbians and straight women… and lesbians (and sometimes gay men) provide something exciting for the straight men and women to watch… same-sex kisses. Gays are perfectly normal people. Their only “difference” is that they (romantically) love somebody of their own sex. Aside from the cruel prejudice that they face because of who they love, they usually are able to live wonderfully full, happy lives. Often, gays have reclamed old derogatory terms for them as terms of affection: fag and queen for the men, dyke for the women, queer for anyone from the non-heterosexual community, etc… although they can still be used as insults by the bigoted. Gays sometimes do imitate heterosexual gender roles (butch and femme) in their marriages (in every other way if not legal), but most do not; plenty of femmes pair up with other femmes, butches with other butches, androgyny and so forth. It’s often remarkable how much their unions resemble heterosexual unions. A man can be highly flamboyant and act and dress quite feminine, but sleeping with men is the last thing on this mind. Likewise, a man can be incredibly butch and swaggering, and yet he likes to sleep with men; being gay has to do with who you are attracted to sexually, not how masculine or how feminine you are. Gay is not all about sex. Most gays are happy doing other things than sex. And most gays loathe the idea of molesting a child, contrary to the beliefs of ignorant people. (Almost all pedophiles are heterosexual) And with marriage ending in so many divorces, then those in favor of marriage should be happy that there are people who want to get married and are willing to fight for that right. Gays have had to fight so much for the basic rights that straights take for granted. -”Those flowers are so lovely in here! So bright and gay! Don’t you think so?” -”Yes! Quite nice to look at!” -”Aw man, this computer is being so gay! It won’t let me print!” *Smack!* -”Hey, what was that for?!” -”You are being so straight!” -”Scott… I have to tell you something very important… -”What is it, Colin?” -”I- I’m gay.” -”That makes two of us.” -”You are?!… Then are you comfortable knowing…?” -”Knowing what?” -”That I love you…” -… -”Scott?” -… -”I- I’ll leave you alone if you want me to…!” -”No, stay! Joe…” -”Yeah?” -…”C’mere!” suck it, bishes!!!

Summoning.. 2?

OK, so I’m not a member; but I would like to say “Jagex, did your new ‘amazing’ skill total fail?” Yes, it did : ))  Not only did you decide to blurt out the fact that you have introduced a new skill. It was ignored enough by your loyal players and payers that you have to release it again?? To me, it seems like a very boring skill that requires no.. skill in doing. I really can’t be bothered to say anymore except, nice one Jagex, idiots.